So, I can now promise to get back to regularly scheduled posts. Which is great because I really missed updating this place. But aside from having missed it, it also means that Odin and I aren’t really at odds anymore.
See, what happened was I felt like He was handing me the things I wanted most, but then cruelly yanking them away several weeks later after I’d had yet more time to fall in love with them. For example, He showed me where I’d be happiest, and gave me a great guy to go along with it. I visited here last year and fell in love with the place and the guy even more, and after that I made the move happen. I got here and, even though I was beating my head against a wall everyday, I couldn’t find the thing that would allow this move to be permanent: a job.
I kept drawing Runes and honoring Odin every Wednesday until I had had enough. Mr. O (as a friend fondly refers to Him) teaches some pretty hard lessons, but even warriors have a limit. So one day I said “enough” and put aside my Runes and took off my Valknut. That’s when the hiatus began. I told Him I wouldn’t do anything at all that could be construed as working for Him, honoring Him, or anything of the like.
A few weeks past and still nothing changed. I stubbornly clung to my position much like a child clings to a safety blanket.
Oddly enough though, these past few days I’ve been feeling the draw towards my Valknut again. I considered for days putting it back on, but didn’t touch it. This morning I came quite close to drawing a Rune as well, but also refrained from that. Then on my way out to job hunt yet again, my friend messaged me and said Mr. O wanted me to put my Valknut back on–just as a sign of faith. This is something I’d been feeling anyway, but at her words I knew putting it back on was the right thing to do. So before heading out I retrieved it from it’s resting spot and fastened it around my neck.
I didn’t touch my Runes though (and still haven’t), but it’s interesting to note that yesterday I noticed Eihwaz popping up in a few random places.
Half hour to an hour after I put the Valknut back on, I get a call. From a job. One I’d be waiting to hear from for weeks, but had given up hope on. They offered me the position and I start work tomorrow.
So, whether or not my “tantrum” had anything to do with me finding this job, I have a job. And I have to say that wearing my Valknut definitely feels right. It felt right the second I put it back on. So around my neck it will stay and back to updating this space I will go.